My name is Amarillo and I am the La Laguna one and I am aware there is also an Amarillo in Rio San Juan. He is the RSJ Amarillo. I am the lagoon Amarillo. We are different yellows. His yellow is a street yellow, warm afternoon town light yellow. Mine is a lagoon morning yellow, the kind the light makes on the water when it comes through the trees at a low angle and everything turns gold. I sit beside the lagoon at that specific time every morning and I am exactly the color of the light and I feel that we were made for each other, the lagoon morning and me. I have ticks and gut worms and I need medicine and food and I am asking from my golden morning spot by the lagoon. The light is still there every morning. I want to be healthy enough to match it properly.